Christina, Kropyvnytskyi

“ I want to believe that Ukraine will win and recover. But it does not bring back thousands of lost lives. We must never forget them. ”
In December, I was in Kharkiv. I'm afraid to imagine how he now looks. You can go crazy thinking about how many people died and how many are homeless.
My name is Christina. I am 26 years old. I am from Kropyvnytskyi. This is the regional center in the heart of Ukraine. My region was not as affected by the war as Kyiv or Kharkiv. To us even bring in refugees from other areas. About a week ago, they were more than 40 thousand, now probably even more. A few days ago, the Mykolaiv region shot down a rocket that flew in our direction. Despite this, we have a relatively quiet life. I live with my parents, grandmother, younger sister, and animals. We are the first jumping up at every siren, rushed to the basement, and sat until lights out. One day we had six alarms, starting at 3:30 in the morning.
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Viola, Nikolaev

“ I wanted to write from the very beginning of this column, but it was very scary. Now this is my constant emotion — fear. ”
I learned about the war, like many people: I woke up around 5 a.m. from explosions. I called my father, he calmed me down but did not immediately believe that these were really explosions. And around 6 a.m.
I’m Viola. From Nikolaev. Very peaceful and quiet city. Was. Now it is regularly bombed. I wanted to write from the very beginning of this column, but it was very scary. Now this is my constant emotion — fear. Even before the war, I moved to my parents, outside the city to a village near Nikolaev. They wanted to go on vacation, and someone had to look after the house.
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Tatiana, Odessa/Poland

“ Relatives from Mariupol do not get in touch. And it's raining stones on our heads every day. I do not know how to survive this, I feel like a crushed insect. ”
Her whole life was destroyed. Her favorite books, toys, dresses, old photos, favorite places remained in Odessa. Here, in Poland, we try to make our life as normal as possible, but how can this be done if my parents in Zaporizhzhia live in constant fear of bombing, the nuclear power plant is 40 km away from them, and their dog is terribly afraid explosions?
My name is Tatiana. I have been living in Poland for the last year, my daughter lived in Odesa, my parents are in Zaporizhzhia, friends are all over Ukraine. The war for me began with the fact that my daughter called me in tears early in the morning: “Mom, I’m so scared, I woke up from bomb explosions.” She lived alone with a cat, none of her relatives in the city. When did the air campaign begin alarm, it was not clear whether it was our air defense or the Russians were shooting. It’s a long way to go to the shelter, and even with a cat, so they sat in the bathroom and slept there too.
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Lena, Kharkiv/Lviv

“ After that , the four of us got to the station to the sounds of explosions and boarded the first evacuation train. A friend became ill at the station in Lviv, doctors ran to her, took her off the train and sent her to the hospital. ”
I have mental problems. My pills are now sold without prescriptions, and I'm very happy about it: I don't know how I would cope without them. In Lviv, we live in the hostel we were placed in through volunteering. They are threatening to evict us, and we have not been able to find any other housing yet.
My name is Lena, I’m from Kharkiv. On February 24, when it all started, I couldn’t sleep after Putin’s speech, and soon we heard explosions. My parents went to Transcarpathia, my mother and sisters moved from there to Poland, and my stepfather stayed in Transcarpathia. My partner, my best friend and her partner and I spent the first five days of the war in Kharkiv, because my friend started having severe nervous tics, and I had to look for medical help for her. They put her in intensive care, tied her arms and legs for some reason and started dripping haloperidol, three different neuroleptics, on the move and anti-anxiety. Then it turned out that the doctor was using physical violence against her, and we had to pull her out. After that , the four of us got to the station
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Tatiana, Kiev

“ On February 24, 2022, I was sitting in my kitchen in Kyiv and making a decision. "I'm tired of running. We will leave if the Russians occupy the city," I told my husband. I'm Russian and running away from the Russians. ”
Today is March 29. We are still here. It has become calmer in the last week. Our army is recapturing the cities adjacent to Kyiv. There is hope that Kyiv will be left by war.
I’m used to sleeping lightly, after all, parenthood has been my main profession for many years. I woke up from the explosions. My husband, too. We went to make coffee, decided not to wake the children yet. They sleep in their rooms. Daughters 13, the middle son is 10 and the youngest is 5. Today is February 24. Exactly four days ago I turned 45, and I decided that I would finally be able to act not under the pressure of circumstances, but by my own choice. An adult girl already.
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Alina, Kiev/Ivano-Frankivsk

“ This does not mean that good people in Russia have disappeared, no. But there is this feeling that they have allowed it all. I still don't hate. But I don't want to protect anyone anymore. ”
My mother did not want to leave Kyiv and stayed. Kyiv is being bombed, but everything seems to be calm in her area. Every morning I check what's going on there and feel ashamed and relieved that I got into some other house.
I overslept beginning of the war, to be honest. We agreed with a friend to meet on Thursday the 24th at a coffee shop and work from there. And in the morning I received a message from him that, apparently, the plans have changed. I didn’t immediately understand what had happened. I went to watch the news, and there was a war. And shock. Now we joke that Thursday was stolen from us.
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Sasha, Kyiv

“ The day before the war, we were in a coffee shop discussing which dentistry is better to enroll in. What color to paint. Should I change my job for another one. ”
I see and know a few Russians who go to rallies, who are against the war. Who go as volunteers to fix what is broken by Russia. Although it's getting harder to believe them every day. Every day, Mariupol, Kharkiv, Kherson, villages around Kyiv are being destroyed.
Hello! My name is Sasha, I am 35 years old. Nationality has never been important to me. Personality has always been important to me. I moved to my beloved girlfriend from Russia to Kyiv in 2016. My parents were panicking on Skype and shouting: “Don’t go outside! Don’t speak Russian! Russians are being killed here!” I answered in perplexity: “But here half of them speak Russian calmly.”
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Tatiana, Kharkiv/Spain

“ Of course, I want to go home. But the house is bombed, there are no windows, looters could manage, there is no infrastructure either, the territory can be mined. ”
Every day the battles came closer. Electricity, heating, water were lost. It was impossible to buy food, medicine, gasoline. From the first day, my partner and I were left without a job and a salary.
My name is Tatiana. From the age of 12, I lived in Kharkiv, before that my family lived in Volgograd. My family consists of children, a partner, a mother, and a dog. I live (lived) on the eastern outskirts of Kharkiv. On February 24, at 5 a.m., I saw on the horizon, where there was a military unit, the glow of a fire, and a column of smoke. Mom came running from the next room: “Is this a war?..”
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Nastya, Rozovka

“ I hate my Russian passport. If it wasn't for the fact that I might still need it to get home, I would have gotten rid of it long ago. ”
Mariupol is the nearest city to us, we went there for shopping, to the doctors, just for a walk. This year my daughter went to the 1st grade, and we had a medical examination before school in the very hospital that the Russians destroyed.
My name is Nastya, I live in Ukraine, the village of Rozovka, about 40 km from Mariupol. I have a permanent residence permit in Ukraine, my children (7 years and 4 years) are citizens of Ukraine, but my citizenship, unfortunately, — Russia.
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Nastya, Kharkiv / Lviv

“ I completely stopped thinking about anything other than the war. There was nothing left but the horror that I could lose my loved ones, my beloved city. I want it to stop. ”
My name is Nastya. I lived in Lviv for about seven years, and two months ago we decided to return to Kharkiv. On the day the war started, my husband woke me up with a call at 5:39. He shouted into the phone that we were being bombed so that I would grab the children and wait for him.
My name is Nastya. I lived in Lviv for about seven years, and two months ago we decided to return to Kharkiv. On the day the war started, my husband woke me up with a call at 5:39. He shouted into the phone that we were being bombed so that I would grab the children and wait for him. We decided at that moment to try to go to Kyiv, and then to Lviv. When we ran out to the minibus – it was no longer possible to call a taxi — there were a lot of people on the street, they ran to the shops to buy groceries. We got into the minibus to the sounds of explosions.
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